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I cower under its gaze
Anger radiates in burning rays
Fear and terror my companions
Assaulting me with the force of battalions
The heat of wrath burns the air
As I seek to hide the unseen stare
Shame and guilt rightfully mine
Guilty am I of many a crime
The anger and wrath justified
For the offenses I seek to hide
None can accuse Him of sinful anger
Thus, no defense is found in the matter
He is right, I am wrong
Condemned am I in this anger so strong
Rebellion and mutiny, the grand coup
Drenches my record through and through
A total rejection of His rule
Kinging self like an utter fool
My wrongs warranting righteous anger
My sentence sealed in the matter
Crushed beneath the weight of it
Cowering and waiting judgment, I sit.
But then I feel a shift, a diverging
The gaze of anger shifting and turning
It’s oppressive weight suddenly gone
It’s attention to another now drawn
Cautioning a glance up, I raise my eyes and see
In the distance the object of focus instead of me.
On a hill, far away, a crude wooden cross stands
The object of torture and death by cruel men’s hands
Hanging upon it, a masculine form
Now the center focus of this righteous storm
From this distance, only but a shadow
Darkness lay heavy all around masking daylights glow
Fear descended upon my heart
Threatening to rip me apart
What evil is this to divert such wrath
From one such as I fully deserving that
Even as I watched, full vent of rage descended
Crushing the one hung there, just as intended
I turned away, unable to bear the sight
Feeling as though that should be my plight
Moments later, I felt, more than saw, this anger abate
Without looking, I knew the final fate
This man died a horrific death for evil
He died as a condemned criminal
Glancing up one more, I expected to see that cursed hill
But was met only instead by a face of compassion so still
Gone was the hill and this scene of death
Gone was the anger and rage invoked by sins debt
Instead an invitation was extended
The way now open, the way of wrath ended.
I brave a look into these eye’s steady gaze
Immediate shame and fear locking me in their maze
The grace and mercy I witness there
A clear invitation with me to share
Guilt and confusion wash through me and fill my mind
Shame and guilt that I should be the focus of one so kind
Breaking my gaze away, I start to turn
But am stopped by the intense gaze of this loves’ burn
Locked am I to this gaze of His
Transfixed and anchored here to this
The heat and warm of this love rivaling the former wrath
Unable to break gaze now, I marvel what I am looking at
After holding me transfixed for this long moment
He pivots now, exposing the hillside of punishment
His face of love fully exposed
Sits paired with the scene of wrath deposed
Then I understood, in a startling moment of clarity
Then I understood, love and wrath lacked polarity
It was love that produced such wrath on that hill
It was love that crushed this one to death so still
It was my sin, my wrongs that was the object of this wrath
But another bore them for me in the sovereign’s just bath
Perfect love and perfect wrath united as one
To satisfy justice for every wrong I had ever done
The invitation before me now clear
Repent, believe, and come near
This divine king desiring closeness so dear
Offering to wipe the slate clean and clear
An invitation made possible by this death
An invitation made possible by the settling of this debt
A substitute paying the price I owed
Mercy paid the price even as wrath and blood flowed
This one stood in my place of wrath and justice
So that I might stand in the place of love so wondrous
This hillside of death before me
Is the mercy seat opening the way to thee
This one crushed upon the evil piece of wood
Displaying the highest and greatest good
Such mercy, such wonder!
To rip and rend righteous wrath asunder
How could I resist or deny such grace
So kneeling down, I chose surrender and embrace!
Michael Stitzel