Romans 3:11
Psalm 14

Abba,

What a wonder it is that ANY of us have found you; that any of us WANTED to find you.  Because of the true nature of our hearts, apart from you, none of us would have even sought you had you not intervened; had you not drawn us (John 6:44).  Our faith is a gift (Romans 12:3).  Our repentance is a gift (2 Timothy 2:25).  None seek you apart from your intervention.  None want to.  How incredibly humbling is this to consider.  How humbling it is to know that the only reason any of us are wrapped in your embrace is because YOU, YOU took the initiative and drew us.  YOU wanted to be found.  You wanted US to find you.  This is not a new truth to me.  But it is one that constantly amazes me and OUGHT to keep amazing me. 

Why, Abba, why do you desire me?  I know what is in my heart.  I see the dark, filth of self.  I see what sin has made me.  And I do not even see it as fully as you do.  It boggles my mind to think that you still want me knowing what is in me. 

But then, this is what grace is, isn’t it?  It is precisely because of how filthy and disgusting I am that you WANT to draw me, to redeem and save me.  It is not about me, but about you.  Rescuing me makes much of you.  Causing my rebellious and dark heart to rejoice in, delight in, and worship you, makes much of you!  And all the while, it satisfies the longings of my created heart.  This is grace!  This is the wonder of your glory! 

Yes, you WANT to be found. And your grace frees us to find you. Abba, you are beautiful beyond compare. Thank you for drawing me to behold and delight in you!